Man, does anyone remember those commercials, ‘life comes at you fast’? It happened to me sometime late September, you know it came at me fast! As I look around my office at calendars that haven’t been updated since September, as I review my blog postings that were once filled with passion; I see that having this new little one has already changed me (at least temporarily). In conjunction with this ‘pause of life as I knew it’…toddlers, toddlers oh my, they are at the height of toddler-hood. My almost 2 year old is wow…almost 2. My 3 year old has more personality than I know what to do with. Lately, the cuteness is overpowered by the whininess and my innate desire to be asleep or laying in the bed with my Bible (from whence my help comes), is in-control of everything! I feel as though I am coming out of it but I also feel like I have been saying that for about 2 weeks now. I assume this means it must have been much worse.
It’s funny how soon we forget a blessing. I have proven/done it, repented and pressed forward with a new (consciously making a decision) attitude. I had moments of pure ungratefulness, pure cynicism. Wholeheartedly thinking about the future when I had just received my present gift. You know, whining and moaning about the very thing I had prayed for, for the very thing I blogged about in my personal blogs for months. It’s been rough this pregnancy and I had been fantasizing on thoughts of May (expected delivery date) only half way through my 1st trimester. Geez, talk about ungrateful, huh!
I assume this happens more often than folks care to admit. I’ve seen it happen with people in relation to jobs, spouses, homes, vehicles, and let me add pregnancy. It’s almost like the American way, we are prone to take things for granted & be ungrateful.
To encourage the spirit in me I will have to stand on these scriptures (place them where I can be reminded of them, ya know), Colossians 4:2-Devote yourself to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart & 1 Thessalonians 5:18-Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.
Till next time (hopefully it won’t be so long),
Kisha
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